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Saturday, 04 July 2009

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    The High End of Low (Deluxe Edition)
    By Marilyn Manson
    Devour
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    I'm back.

    So, I didn't have internet for about 6 months when we lived in our condo. I'm back with my grandparents now. Just me. Marcus is in Texas now. Long story. I will be back at some point today to talk about it but right now I need to go eat.

    I'm glad I can write on here again. I don't really have anyone else to talk about things to. Not that anyone reads my posts, but at least I can get it all out of me.

     

Tuesday, 23 December 2008

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    Scattering of Ashes
    By Into Eternity
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    Following your heart AND your mind.

    When I was younger, more stupid, and more naive, I was a firm believer in "following your heart." I thought if you followed your heart on everything in you life, every choice you made, every move you made, then everything would turn out fine in the end.

    I don't believe that anymore. Well, I do to an extent. I do think you need to listen to your heart at all times, but not necessarily follow it all the time. Your heart doesn't always want what's best for you. So you need to find a balance, a healthy medium, between your heart and your mind. Listen to both and let both guide you. Don't just use passion or emotions or feelings to make a decision, use logic too.

    If we were given both a mind and a heart and the ability to listen and follow each of them, how come sometimes we don't do that? Why do we sometimes only listen to what our heart wants and only follow it, while our mind is screaming at us that we are making the wrong decision. Am I making sense? Here's an example.

    About 7 months ago, I had to make a decision. A choice between two guys. One of them, we'll call him guy number one (we weren't dating at the time, only talking, but we had dated before), is the one my heart wanted, but my mind didn't. He's someone that I had known for quite some time and had very very strong feelings for. I really believed he was the best guy I had ever dated and probably ever would date, and I was almost sure he was my soulmate. My heart wanted him more than anything. But my head didn't. My mind told me daily that there are numerous reasons why I shouldn't be with him. I won't list them all here, but I'm not exaggerating when I say there were a lot of reasons why my mind was against him. But did I listen to my mind? Not really. I tried, but my heart was too strong, it always won the battle. But then a new guy, guy number two, came along. I liked him. I liked him a lot, actually. He was really amazing. Being with guy number one had made me set the bar very high when it came to potential boyfriends. Guy number two exceeded those standards. And I couldn't find hardly any reasons why I shouldn't be with him. There really was only one thing but it was minor and soon to be fixed. My heart and mind completely and totally agreed on guy number two. But there was still the issue of whether or not I wanted to listen to my mind. It was screaming right in my face, "PICK GUY NUMBER TWO! NUMBER ONE WILL NEVER EVER WORK!" I knew my head was right but... Well, I'm stubborn and young and rebellious and my heart just doesn't like to back down.

    In the end, I picked guy number two. My heart surrendered and decided to give my mind equal share of control. I listen to both now, and let both guide me... Most of the time. Sometimes my heart gets a little crazy, but eventually my mind grabs it's half of the reins again and things are okay. Had I not listened to my mind 7 months ago and let my heart continue on the path it was on, things would not be nearly as good as they are now. I'd be stuck dealing with all the problems that guy number one has (and they are his problems, not mine).

    My point is, your heart can lead you astray. You need your head too. Use both.

Monday, 22 December 2008

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    Tinker Bell
    By Mae Whitman, Kristen Chenoweth, America Ferrera, Raven, Lucy Liu
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    People annoy the hell out of me. I'm entitled to my opinion and I am entitled to posting that opinion on MY xanga. Don't leave me long ass comments about your opinion or about how wrong I am if I didn't ask for you opinion on the matter. Don't come forcing your opinion down my throat just cause you think my opinion is wrong.

    Thanks.

     

    Life is sucking quite a bit lately. I found out on Friday that my car is officially totalled. YAY. Not. I'm pissed. AND they might not let my take out my stereo and speakers before they salvage, which makes me more mad. We're taking them out anyway, but they might try to say we have to give them to them or something. I dunno. I went to the chiropracter on Saturday, my neck and the back of my head started hurting again. He gave me the name of a paralegal to use. She charges $350. Which kinda sucks but at the same time, I would rather pay someone who knows what the hell they are doing when dealing with the insurance companies, rather than dealing with them myself and fucking things up and falling for their tricks and losing even more money.

    Well, maybe LIFE isn't sucking so much, just that part of it. We are definitely going to get that condo, my grandma already wrote the lease out for us. It's just a matter of possibly finding someone to take that spare room and help with the rent. Ray can't. I might ask Jamie again cause her boyfriend moved back to Arizona so maybe now she won't need to save money to move next year to be with him... I dunno. Anyway, I'm still excited that we are getting it. I just wish this whole car ordeal had come at a different time. Not when we're trying to move!

    I bought Sea Monkeys last night. :)

Saturday, 20 December 2008

Monday, 15 December 2008

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    The Ascension
    By OTEP
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    I have the most amazing luck.

    Yesterday, around 5 pm, I got in another car accident.

    It was me and Marcus in the front, he was driving. My sister and my grandma were in the back. We were at red light in the left turn lane and someone in a truck slammed into us from behind.

    My first thought was, "OUCH!" cause my head flew foward and then slammed back against the head rest. My sencond thought was, "You have got to be fucking kidding me! Again?!" I got out of the car and slammed my door shut, so ready to rip someone's head off. But my grandma made me walk to the gas station we were next to with her and Marcus and the truck pulled into it. The guy got out and just kept apologizing. Suddenly the cops pulled in too. We didn't call the cops, he didn't call the cops so... Who did? We still don't know. A fire truck showed up incase anyone was hurt. Now I wish I had told them I was, but I didn't feel hurt at the time. My neck hurts like hell now. Anyway, it took them forever to question the guy but they said he was intoxicated. That became obvious when he started doing the sobriety test. He totally failed.

    But luckily he had insurance. My rear end is completely smashed, my trunk won't close and me, my grandma, and my sister all have whiplash. So that's no good.

    In other news, we got a lot of stuff for the condo. Plates, silverware, all that crap. The only problem is that the plates broke when we got hit. But otherwise, it's exciting. :)

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